re: I'm so fricking tired......just tired.

Find a hobby and improve yourself. It's much easier said than done, I understand that. Set a goal and move a bit more towards it every day. The most important thing you can do to get past the grind is to create hope that you can dig out of it. If you resign yourself it will never get better.

Make something to look forward to, it can be a new job, new skillset, a passion project, anything.