re: My testimony... I pray this will speak to someone.

You found your path and are living life fully now. Not everyone's spiritual journeys are the same, but as long as they lead to the same ending the journey played out the the right way. None of us do anything right all the time, but striving to do so is what matters. I look at the life of flesh like an egg: our body is the eggshell that's incubating the soul within, and how we live our life through Christ is what grows that soul to eventually break free of the shell and move on to our next, final life.

I liked reading your post, because it's always refreshing to witness someone find his right path in his life. The atheists and lazy will DV your OP or outright ridicule it, but none of that matters. There are enough of us here that appreciate it.