Woman finds Dead Husband's Depraved Secret, eats his ashes

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Lying in bed at home in Calgary, Canada, she opened Sean's iPad to search for the phone number of the Houston hospital where his body was being stored.

But Jessica only made it as far as typing 'Ho' when the search window auto-filled with the words: 'Houston escorts'.

Confused, she scrolled through the search history – and a stream of disturbing past queries flashed up: 'locations… girls… services… prices'.

Over the following months, Jessica would discover that the man she'd thought of as a loyal husband had been a relentless user of prostitutes, had conducted numerous affairs – and had frequently worked through the night to curate a sprawling collection of depraved images on his personal computer

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There was yet more humiliation in store. When Jessica traveled to Denver to clear out Sean's bachelor apartment, she found a hard drive.

Plugging it into her computer, she discovered he had created countless electronic folders filled with hundreds of hours-worth of pornography, all painstakingly labelled and categorized by age, race and source.

She would come to describe it as the 'Matrix of Porn'.

Jessica spent hours going through the archive, trying to understand what on earth had been in her husband's head. She stopped only when she began to worry that Sean's pornography was rewiring her own brain.

She writes how she had been in the audience at a high school play when, disturbingly, she found herself imagining one of the schoolgirl actresses naked.

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I've desecrated the remains of my partner in life,' she reflects. But then, in despair and guilt, took more of his ashes – and actually ate them.

'The remains feel dry against my fingertips, coarser than baking powder, grainier than salt,' she says in one of the strangest set of tasting notes you're ever likely to read. 'They mix with the teary water, a mineral mud on the back of my tongue. I swallow

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